been so long time...

Lalalala....its been so long time i left u alone here my little blogger.... kinda miss u actually... hmmm..... its so many wonderful stuff and terrible thing happen for this few months.. i have broke up with stewart... my love to him is getting lesser... and my love getting stronger with another new boy...kc Chang...35.. now is 9.30pm i still at shop,just finish my facial with a customer (ivy Goh siok hui) boring...but im exhausted...really..exhausted... today is kinda busy day for me....i busy from day till night... felt like i never have time for my own stuff....my time been control... is it true 24 hours a day is not enough to use...lolzz... every day i work till so hard,sometimes it make me feel like is it worth to do so? will my lady boss appreciate with what have i do?? she keep complaining me in this month(MAY 2012) did i do anything wrong..i wonder..i just do what i have do usually... hmmmm...wondering yeah.... this coming june..11/6 will be the second year i have working at Jocosa Beauty...she said will increase my salary...but i never give any hope on it...i scare to get dissapointed...so i just take it as nothing.....treat it as nothing... lalala..bla lbla...bla...thats my working life here... oooppsss...not done yet ya...i have another job beside as beautician,actually im an insurance agent too.....hahazz.... got any problem with saving money you may find me...yuhuu....i got just 1 customer...but i close 3 cases...T.T...too bad...i know u know lo....issshh...sio tiok du tulan.. ok....now talk bout family....still a piece of shit...haha... earn nothing...talk much but get nothing...still sleep at home earning nothing.. still do the same thing for 4 years...OMG..if i got such kind of brain,in this 4 years,i think i get n earn so many already....but too bad thats brain not belong to me... lalalazz...my lover...he is an old man..loso man...but im lucky to have him... he did really love me..care me...just he is a little bit hot temper...and a kind that rushing... he cant wait u to explain finish just talk then he beh tahan want to say and shout to u... and he very fast then get misunderstand with what i say... coz my explaination poor too....huhu...but anyway i still love him so...just i still cant use to take care his daughter...im tired everyday...just hope to sleep and rest well...but no one know.... they though i rest for a night then enough...but its not for me...coz i never rest..even i sleep... my brain never rest,my body my muscle never stop working...im exhausted... but no matter how im lucky that i have him to love me.....sayang me after im back work...thanks God

my world messy world

what happen to me n him?cnt be cure anymore!?我很不舍。。我是爱他的。。但为何要这样对我?冷淡...是不是意思是说我们都是不爱对方了...我试着不要去想但是还是不能

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arrgh.....

我做工做到很累啊!

都没有人会了解！

他也一样！

我说自己累他就说自己更累!

什么嘛!有好休息，有好迟醒,却还要跟人家比!

如果做到像我这样他不就自杀就好咯...

他不会明白我的苦!讨厌啊!:!

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2012

就这样新的一年到了。。。我依然一个人。。。一个人过。。。人家连理都不理我。。。我真的累又寂寞到。。。很想哭咯。。。每个人post fb都写到几甜咯！而我。。几羡慕咯。。。唉。。。干吗我还抱着没有可能的希望呢？

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sigh...

stupid cigarette...who create this cigarrette??shit!!spoiled my mood!harmfull to health too!!i really hope u not smoking...pls...pls...pls....dont smoke pls....or else i wanna learn smoking too...let u know my feeling...make u know how hurt am i when u r smoking...

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sigh...

stupid cigarette...who create this cigarrette??shit!!spoiled my mood!harmfull to health too!!i really hope u not smoking...pls...pls...pls....dont smoke pls....or else i wanna learn smoking too

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its almost the ending of the year of 2010..

now im here...
hear to christmas song.....
at padungan flat...(my be stewart house)
his mum is putting boney m song....
huhu....its make me miss my family so much....
i miss my mum,my dad,my brothers both of brother n m little brother melvin...

can hear christmas song every where....its a signal said that christmas is coming n year is ending...
Huhu....
Huhu...wuwu...
Every1 wish to make new wish on christmas day....
But for me,my wish nvr change...i hope n i wish my family member is healthy...
N i wish all of them stop argue with each other,live peaceful....
I miss the time went i was kids....all of us nvr separate...eat dinner together,play together..
But now ...no more...no more...

Its 2011 is coming....
What the memory of 2010?
Sweet?bitter?salty?sour??
For me....all.....
Many things that i have did for this year...
Change my working place frm splendour care to jocosa beauty...
Make new fren....meet bck my primary school friend at fb...
Saw friends breack up.....
Family....bla bla bla....
My special boyfriend,the sweetest in my heart love me deeper then b4...hmmm....
N many many many more....

Im keeping bla bla bla n bla bla bla n bla bla...bla....huhu....