feeling bad....why it like this???

haiz....
i am not feeling well today....feel wanna sick...
every 1 is happy up there but not me...
i feel every body is getting hate me...
but why?that is a big question mark...
from small i always wish to be happy in family just like other out there..
but dont know why i never have it....
my father hate me...every people said which father not sayang their own child?
but no body know...i am the 1 that hate by my father...
i dont know why he is hating me...
i always pray to God to forgive him....but no matter how i pray it is no change....
i wish to have many friends....i wish my friends good to me...but i dont have it.i never have it....
all i want in this world is to be happy...and i want a peaceful life...
i dont want to be hate...i dont want to be sad all the time....
in relationship with him....?i really love him maybe he dont know how much i love him....but i really love him more then other...
i hope he will zhen xi me....but i dont know anything....i dont know wat he thinking about i dont know wat he feel...
I always feeling that i am lonely in this world.....i know God is always beside us....but i feel upsad...i dont have happy at all...all i want just a simple word love from every body...i dont want to be hate...i just want to be love...